success

this word, success echoed through my mind last night. it's a haunting word for me, one of those  words that can make me feel so empty, leave me comparing myself to others or completely hard on myself. it often feels so elusive and undefinable, but there was a wholeness, a life, a blessing from God it seemed to be sensing success in my heart this night. i can connect it to nothing in particular and this is why i know it will last, why i know i can treasure it in my heart.